I’m sitting here in my anger, letting it control me. I know that this is not the way but yet I let the anger consume me. It doesn’t matter if I know another way if I don’t act in that way. It’s as though I know the benefits of washing my hands after going to a public wash room but I’m adamant that I’m not going to change my ways.

But what do I do? Do I think that my way is the right way, or should I do the healthy thing? Should I hold onto anger, poisoning myself in the process? Or instead should I learn new ways, letting go, embracing the present moment? I know that I can’t negate or stuff my anger, but I can respect it without being consumed by it.

I need to pray for those things or people that bring up anger within me. Or rather I WANT to pray for those things and people. When I hear the word NEED, I fight against it, even if it is the most healthy thing for me.

I hope and pray that I can let go of anger. That I can pray and mean it.